I always want to talk to you. No matter what time it is, where I am, or what I’m doing. I’d drop whatever I’m doing just to have a conversation with you. Why? Simply because I love talking to you. I love how we talk about the most random topics. I love how you know how to keep a conversation going. I love how we lose track of time. IA simple text, or phone call from you can make me smile throughout the whole day. I know it sounds rather silly, but it’s true. You’re on my mind all the time.

can i ?

  1. Why can love be so cruel at times?

      Makes you feel stupid and dumb.

Why do people accept the love they don’t deserve?

      Searching for somebody else’s attention when

      You’re right there waiting, unaware.

Why do promises exist if they’re meant to be broken anyway?

Why do we fall in love and be hurt at the same time?

How come we can stay up late thinking of somebody

      Whose world revolves on someone else?

There is no combination of words to describe this feeling.

Perhaps a melody to mend a broken a broken heart.

Love hurts and we must accept it.

Besides, it’ll pass though memories remain.

The world may set both of us apart but this I say,

“You’re the best thing I’ve ever had. And I will always

      Be thankful that I once had you.”

No more whispers of “I love you “and exchange of “I miss you”

-from my bestfriend : a poem about me

When Jealousy Strikes

Naranasan nyo na bang makakita ng super gandang shoes or bag habang naglalakad sa mall. Na kahit sino makakita magagandahan at bibilin yun. Tapos yung tipong gusto mong sabihin sa kanila na “ako na una! Akin lang to! Walang aagaw!” Kaso kahit halos gustong gusto mong bilin to di mo magawa kasi you dont have enough money or my mas importante kang bibilin kesa doon. Well, nashare ko lang naman hehe. But anyway, what i feel now was like that. The feeling that you want to take her and tell them thats she’s only yours but you can’t because you know it’s impossible. You were on a complicated situation that you can only do was to accept the reality and tell to yourself that “she’s not yours”.The feeling that you only felt was the pain in your heart and that was the feeling of being “jealous

Sabi nila mahirap daw magkagusto sa taong maganda, yung tipong masasabi mong nasa kanya na ang lahat then lahat ng madadaanan niya siguradong mapapatingin sa kanya. Ganyan na ganyang yung taong minahal ko. She’s like a chanel shoes and bag na halos lahat ng taong makakakita sa kanya ay gusto siyang i-grab. Even her friends mapa-facebook man o wattpad siya lang halos topic sa every status nila. Meron pa ngang gumagawa ng story about sa kanya eh at ang masama pa dun dahil sa sobrang pagka-istalker ko ayun nababasa ko yung mga yun. And sa tuwing papasok siya sa work ? haiisst kahit yung katabi nya sa bus naiinlove sa kanya at as usual lalo na yung mga guest at kasama nya sa trabaho mapababae man o lalake. Tsk grabe no? Sa tuwing naririnig ko nga yang mga ganyan nyang kwento parang gusto ko na siya puntahan at iuwi samin para mabantayan at masolo ko siya ng walang fans nya na eepal.

Mahirap mapunta sa sitwasyon na kinalalagyan ko. Minsan nga gusto ko na rin magpost or sabihin din kung gano ko siya kamahal gaya ng ginagawa nila sa kanya. Gusto ko rin ipagmalaki yung name niya at sabihing “this was the girl who stole my heart and no one can match the love that i feel for her”. But sabi nga nila “ I shouldn’t be jealous, you aren’t even mine” . Kaya eto ako ngayon dinadaan sa pagka emo tong nararamdaman ko. Nakakabaliw na nga eh daig ko pa ang mmk sa sobrang drama. Kaya tuloy pagtumatawag ako sa kanya kung anu ano nasasabi kong kahihiyan. Para akong batang nagwawala dahil hindi makuha ang gusto. Para akong batang umiiyak kung minsan dahil inagawan ng candy.

Sana naging manhid na lang ako para di ako nagkakaganito. Sana detachable na lang yung utak at puso ko para pag alam ko ng nasasaktan na ko tatanggalin ko na lang to. Pero kahit anu pang “sana” ko hindi ko maitatago ang katotohanang sinabi sakin ni Johnny Depp na “You can close your eyes to the things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to the things you don’t want to feel”. Kaya accept ko na lang and imbis na magmukmok kakaselos,  mas iintindihin ko  na sadyang cute lang talaga siya kaya madami nagkakagusto. Nang sa ganon,  mas mapatunayan ko kung gano ko siya kamahal na hindi sa isang selos lang ako magpapatalo at hahayaang masira yung relationship na binuo namin. Im not weak as they thought. Im an awesome cool girl and no one can beat me. Lol that’s the spirit ! :)








dendreadre:

I cant even

reading someone’s post to you makes my heartache… lalo na nung nakita ko status nya sa wattpad… ang sakit..di ko namalayan umiiyak na pala ako,.. i hate this feeling na nararamdaman ko ngayon… gusto kita agawin sa kanya… gusto ko akin ka lang… but i cant do that…  :’((